I find myself increasingly ridden with anxiety with the passing of any life milestone. Not the kind of anxiety that leads to a single panic attack, but the kind that gets you so wrapped up in your mind that you can't even focus on anything except for how badly you feel. I've been continuously trying to dissect why exactly I feel this way. I've come up with this central point of contention in my mind- Am I where I'm supposed to be? Everybody struggles with this question at some point I'm sure; however, this question literally keeps me up at night. We live in this society that idolizes social media so much that we expect what we see on Instagram to be everyone's normal, everyday, average lives. Yet, we are also expected to work ourselves to the bone until the day we die. This is where my internal battle ensues. I want this beautiful Instagram life, but we gotta have the money to do that right? So, where is the balance, and again, am I where I'm supposed to be? The only answer that ever calms me down or makes me feel comfortable or confident in my own life is that I believe there is something bigger than myself navigating my life. When I really get to questioning myself and letting the judgmental comments of others get to me, I stop and think... I may not be where other people expect me to be or even where I think I'm supposed to be, but I'm where I meant to be. We don't get to control every aspect of our lives, no matter how hard we try. There are always the unforeseen circumstances, accidents, and hardships that pose as obstacles for us all. All any of us can really do is try our best to live a meaningful life, whatever that means to you. While you're working and gaining life skills, you never even knew you needed - don't forget to take time to have fun and make memories. I know that I'm still trying to figure out what direction I'm steering my life. I struggle with what is expected of me by others and what I think I want for myself in my life right now. Can you relate? Audrey Hepburn said it best: " The most important thing is to enjoy your life - be happy - that's all that matters. " While I'm shooting for that Instagram life - I'll aim just to be happy. We should all just shake the stress, hateful and judgmental comments, and just be happy. XOXO, Hunter While I teach for some deeply seeded life purpose I knew I wanted to do something right now to help make a difference. So, I became a Sand Cloud Ambassador! "100,000 marine mammals and turtles and 1 million sea birds are killed by marine plastic pollution annually.Our mission is to protect and save our oceans and all marine life 🌏10% of every purchase is donated to nonprofits that work to save these beautiful animals"
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To me the best Instagram posts are the ones that are real. I don't compare myself to anybody else's posts, although I do get a tad jealous over all of those huge clean beautiful kitchens! I'd much rather see the realness in someone's life than fake smiles covering sad lives. Great post!! :D
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Hunter Ferguson
6/14/2019 07:30:43 am
Thank You so much! I work to create a positive yet realistic portrayal of the struggles that so many people, including myself go through. However, I do like to show the what can happen when you strive to reach your goal despite your struggles. Thanks again.
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Hunter FergusonHolding her Associates of Arts in Political Science, Implementing Beneficial Community Project, and having Led a Student Collaboration team at her college of attendance- Hunter chooses to blog about the world around her as well as her personal experiences in hopes of creating a Powerful group of like-minded people. Archives
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