We've all heard the expression "when people show you who they are, believe them". We also know thats easier said then done. For when your heart and you mind conflict it leaves your body stuck in limbo. What we can't bring ourselves to realize in the moment is that our minds are the compass' that are meant to guide us home. It is our hearts that act as road blocks on the journey. Damage to the mind can be treated an dealt with. Damage to the heart leaves behind scars that effect the way you exist for the rest of time (or every other relationship you have). Each time you rely solely on your heart, you are simply adding another scar. The blood that runs through your veins is contaminated with the toxicity pumped from your heart. Toxicity that comes from the drug like affects of love. Once the contamination circulates throughout your body and reaches your brain, your entire sense of reality becomes warped. Then you begin to believe the lie your heart told your brain because of the toxic relationship that your heart was plagued with. Separating from the toxicity of a person or situation can be almost as difficult as quitting an actual drug. The process itself is very similar. Withdraw, both from a relationship of any kind and drugs effect your body physically and mentally. Difficulty sleeping, anxiety, depression, and cognitive confusion (second guessing the choice you've made) over take the body. All of which are completely normal and temporary. So are the stomach aches, the feeling of chest tightening, and dizziness. For matters of the heart effect the entire body. Luckily, if you continue to push through the pain it will all eventually dissipate. However, relapse (getting back together) only prolongs the inevitable need to start the whole process over again. When your head is saying on thing and your heart is saying another, it is okay to follow your heart, just make sure you take your brain with you. Because your brain knows when something needs to be over long before your heart catches on. Pain is horrible, but temporary. The body is designed to survive. So, even if it feels like this is going to kill you or that you will never be the same, you will come out on the other side with so much more strength then you ever even knew you held inside yourself. You deserve the very best of whatever life has to offer. Even if you could handle your situation forever, do you really want to? Screw want, do you deserve to? The first step in all of this is realizing that despite whatever you've been told you are worth changing your life for. No matter how scary it seems, you are worth risking it all for. With Sympathy, Hunter.
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Hunter FergusonHolding her Associates of Arts in Political Science, Implementing Beneficial Community Project, and having Led a Student Collaboration team at her college of attendance- Hunter chooses to blog about the world around her as well as her personal experiences in hopes of creating a Powerful group of like-minded people. Archives
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